Why Can’t I Pay Attention?

There there are many times that I can’t pay attention. Today’s prompt reads:

Write about a time you tried to pay attention but couldn’t. You floated out of your head, or you fell asleep, or you studied your fingernails. What was it you didn’t want to pay attention to? What was it you were avoiding? Or was boredom a part of it?

There are many times when I’m trying hard to concentrate that my mind starts to wander away from the task at hand. Monkey mind, the Buddhists call it — jumping from one thought to another without direction.

One big distraction for me is the phone and the social media apps on it.

It’s my choice to stop and check them, isn’t it? Can’t blame the phone, can I?

I wonder why I’m so easily distracted though.

Could it be that I’m trying to avoid doing something or focusing on something? What is it I don’t want to pay attention to?

I’m always excited at the thought of writing and creating more. But when it comes down to it, I dawdle, fidget and find ‘important’ things to do!

Am I bored of what I’m doing? No.

What’s stopping me then? What’s the reason for this inner struggle, this distraction?

I can only find the answer to this by writing — so I better focus on it! 😉

Do you have an answer for me?