No More Excuses was written in response to Kate Motaung’s Five Minute Friday prompt — excuse and was first published on Medium. Since then, a couple of Fridays have gone by and I’ve been missing publishing my responses to these prompts.
Today I decided to play catch up and publish my responses to three of these prompts here as they’re all related to writing and creativity.
No More Excuses
I’ve been participating in a writing workshop and have signed up to be a part of a writing community. This is my investment in my writing journey in this year of ‘Yes’. When I chose to do this, I stepped out of the comfort of my blogging and into new territory of learning to write a lot more. I’ve even taken a break from my main blog to focus on the workshop.
The workshop helps me to work on looking back on events and experiences in my life and writing these down. I started off excitedly, but something is holding me back. Is it the risk of having to delve into my past? Or is it a fear of sharing things in the group that are quite personal. To be fair, I am not required to share my writing. But if I want to really grow and learn, I must take the risk of doing so.
I find lots of things to keep me busy and many excuses for not sitting down and doing the exercises from the work shop.
Today, I am resolving to move out of my comfort zone. No more excuses. No more playing safe.
We have to be honest about what we want and take risks rather than lie to ourselves and make excuses to stay in our comfort zone.”― Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart
Slowly Recovering Through Writing
I think that one of the biggest gifts of the pandemic to me is the time and space to do a lot of reflection. While I have been doing a lot more chores around the house, I’ve also spent more time reflecting, going over past events, wondering how I could have responded differently to some situations and people, etc.
Another gift is a flood of memories from my childhood and early adulthood, that I’ve tried to forget happened.
This has led me to challenge myself to be more open, allowing my vulnerable and broken self to come to the fore in my personal writing. I’ve been trying to see things from a different perspective and giving myself the space to recover and heal slowly.
So while my confidence in my ability to stand up for myself has increased, I’m still asking myself questions about my writing –
- do I have anything of value to say to the world?
- will my experiences resonate with others?
- is there a way to share my experiences without hurting others? This is a really tricky one.
I’m still working on self-sabotage. But that’s a whole other post.
Writing is truly helping me to heal and slowly recover the real me.
“So often survivors have had their experiences denied, trivialized, or distorted. Writing is an important avenue for healing because it gives you the opportunity to define your own reality. You can say: This did happen to me. It was that bad. It was the fault & responsibility of the adult. I was — and am — innocent.”― Ellen Bass, The Courage to Heal: A Guide for Women Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse
Are you making excuses not to write? Have you experienced writing as a means to heal and recover? Do share.